How do you say Goodbye?

I went to see Meemaw again tonight. Basically she has to make the decision tonight as to whether or not she wants to live or die. I was able to spend a lot of time with people in and out the whole time. I wanted to tell her I was ok with whatever decision she made, but all I could get out was that I love her and hate seeing her in the hospital. I just could not figure out how to broach the subject in the few minutes we got alone. The rest of the time was spent making small talk between hallucinations. I just could not figure out the right words to say tonight, and usually that is never a problem for me. Maybe tomorrow will be easier.